Infertility

Some of you reading this post will totally get what I am talking about in the post and some of you will not. If you have experienced infertility yourself or know someone very close that has experienced it, then these are the people that will truly get the content and emotion of this post. Infertility is such an evil thing and worst yet there are no answers, no solutions, no explanations. I have struggled with this for years and continue my struggle daily. My faith has lead me to the resolution of a greater plan out there, but boy I wish I could just see the plan. All I have is trust that the plan is in place and will happen in its own time. It is just so hard to not have any control or insight, just trust.

Do not get me wrong, I do think there is a greater plan and all things do happen for a reason. I can say that with such certainty, because of Chandler and how he became part of our family. I have infertility because my children need me more than any children I could have birthed. Knowing that does not make the wait or raw emotions along the path any easier. This second adoption has really tested me in the wait. From all I am being told it is just a matter of a short wait now, but who really knows. And yes, I will post the moment that I know anything.

Back to my point here, does infertility and the struggles that come along with it make you a better parent. I am not saying a better parent than anyone else out there because I know some incredible moms and dads. The better way of saying it is, does it make you a more appreciative parent. Because let me tell you that not a day goes by that I am not aware of how appreciative I am to have Chandler as a son. I just do not know or think with my "people watching" that everyone realizes what a gift we have been given when we are given our children. That means given through birth or any method that may have came about to making a child part of your forever family. If nothing else I think that infertility makes a person more aware of the preciousness, and miracle of a child.